I TRY. (MY FIRST EVER POEM)

I try to be kinder
I try to be happier
I try to fulfill my responsibilities
I try to be an extrovert
I try to be your version of good
I try to fix myself
I try to be the version of myself that you have in your head.

I try to be the perfect daughter
I try to be the perfect sister
I try to be the perfect granddaughter
I try to be the best in all those relationship positions
That women are often associated with.

In the process of trying to be all this for you,
I failed in the responsibility to myself.
Now I might be who you want,
But this is never the me I wanted.
Overly self-conscious, insecure
And fractured.

You might have wanted whatโ€™s good for me,
But all that pressure over the years,
Might have formed a diamond for the outside world,
But only a hollow rock for myself.

33 thoughts on “I TRY. (MY FIRST EVER POEM)

  1. This is heart touching. I also love a good ending for a poem, yours had such an impact. I can really relate to this one. “Might have formed a diamond for the outside world,
    But only a hollow rock for myself.” We’re all so superficial and try to appease everyone around. But true love begins with loving ourselves first.
    Wonderful poem, Nabeeha!

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  2. “But all that pressure over the years,
    Might have formed a diamond for the outside world,
    But only a hollow rock for myself.” – That’s sooo powerful! Beautiful poem, MashAllah!

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